Going Back

Do you ever have a longing to go back and set wrong things right, fix mistakes, re-do situations? All the way from houses I’ve lived in to words I’ve spoken and decisions made,  sometimes I long to do a major overhaul. There’s something about situations that are seen clearly only when they are past.

I find myself asking, what if and then spinning different endings or outcomes. What if I hadn’t said thus and so, or what if I had acted in a different way? What if I had understood where a person was coming from and spoken more kindly? 

Sad to say, life doesn’t come with an instruction manual. It isn’t a book with many headings that I can turn to and know how to act or react. Life can be harsh and hard; it can be kind and encouraging, but most of all, life is a teacher and those lessons learned best and remembered longest come from experience. 

And then, on a lighter note, there are the houses I’ve lived in. I remodel them, adding rooms, paint, even furnishings. Oh, I’m a designer extraordinaire, but only in my mind.

There’s a positive side to all this longing to re-do the impossible: I can apply lessons learned to situations I face today. After all, if I didn’t, what would be the use of learning anything at all? So, I go on, as I imagine you do too, facing each new day with the hope that somehow, I can make things better.

 

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